anyway, i still dont feel that ready. ): but i supposed i will really give my best. :D but then, u see im not sooo into studying, since im still typing here. still doing a lot of things im not supposed to do. but ahwell, life isnt all about exams ;p

and after exams ! time to go out and partyy. :) i guess i dont stay back that much with the rest of the class, but thats cos i live really far away and its like super inconvenient and stuff. ><>

it seems i dont even know what i want myself, and thats pretty dangerous isnt it? because when i got back my results, i thought to myself; okay, its alright, it isnt that bad. but somehow deep inside it wasnt like that, and i only found that out more than 12 hours later, when i could no longer control myself. Sometimes i do things that i cant even explain why im doing so myself, and now i realised, its all because of whats hidden inside. emotions i myself am not even aware of. i dont know what i want, and i dont know what my true expectations of myself are. all i could say was; i dont know, i dont know, i dont know.

i picked myself up at 6:00 AM
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