so, its the weekend and the exams are here. :D

JIAYOUU EVERYONE ! WE CAN DO IT ! <3>

anyway, i still dont feel that ready. ): but i supposed i will really give my best. :D but then, u see im not sooo into studying, since im still typing here. still doing a lot of things im not supposed to do. but ahwell, life isnt all about exams ;p

and after exams ! time to go out and partyy. :) i guess i dont stay back that much with the rest of the class, but thats cos i live really far away and its like super inconvenient and stuff. ><>

it seems i dont even know what i want myself, and thats pretty dangerous isnt it? because when i got back my results, i thought to myself; okay, its alright, it isnt that bad. but somehow deep inside it wasnt like that, and i only found that out more than 12 hours later, when i could no longer control myself. Sometimes i do things that i cant even explain why im doing so myself, and now i realised, its all because of whats hidden inside. emotions i myself am not even aware of. i dont know what i want, and i dont know what my true expectations of myself are. all i could say was; i dont know, i dont know, i dont know.

i picked myself up at 6:00 AM
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it seems like the only thing i can think of on my mind right now is .. whats coming up after eoys! (: it seems so near, yet so far. and thats the unfortunate problem of what comes before that. THE eoys. its our one last chance in this school to perform, i suppose ! so uh lets all study hard and get all As ! or something. if thats possible (:

& im hungry, again! i shall eat chocolate oreos! haha (cheryl doesnt like oreos ;p)

today we bought rubber bands to make zero point ropes! and its really funny cos we bought so much, and we seemed silly esp when ms lee asked what we were doing! oops. heh, i submitted my ydsp form! so well, we'll leave it in God's hands shall we. :)

i shall find my cute pink little ball and see if we can repeat what we did at sec1, though it sounds really silly chasing the ball all over the classroom, falling down and crashing repeatedly. and im not sure if we'll do it again, anyhow, i hope i find it :)

it seems you'll never know what went through my mind at that moment

i picked myself up at 1:57 AM
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this shall be a happy post ! and i shall push all the negative thoughts swarming in my mind right now.

its finally the weekends! yay, but only two more weekends to go before the horror begins. ):

still compiling all the certificates and stuff, which are all over the place. should i go for the ydsp? ysdp? lol programme?

i went crazy last night, as in in the hyper way and drove my parents nuts. :D i was talking nonstop and walking around the house trying to break down more glucose and doing funny thing. hehehe somehow my parents do give me quite a sense of security and at least i can trust them completely. yay :) family is important.

i picked myself up at 7:40 PM
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chinese prelims was horrible. okay to me, it was horrible. to others it might have been okay. but i dont know, i just couldnt do it. ERGH. i really pray that God's hand will be over me. :X for the first paper that signifies in a way, the start of my exams, it certainly did not go well and all i can do now i pray for a miracle. since chinese is subjective and i wouldnt really know how i did, but ahhhh. okay, i really need to learn to let go and leave this to the Lord. yes. :)!
















kbox! lets go kbox and singgggg our worries away :)

so instead of sitting in front of my study table studying, i ended up wasting a whole lot of time doing other things while typing my livingstones journal thing and now im stuck doing the silly chinese sia thing. CANT WAIT TO GET RID OF THESE STUFF. last one last one, and im freee.

taking buses with people are fun, really! they make me happy :D nowadays im always insanely talking to myself and my dad thinks im going crazy. he told me that people who constantly talk to themselves are sent to a particular place ___________ . haha

i actually helped my brother with his project yesterday! im so proud of myself. what can i say? i think our relationship's getting better and its going to a deeper, more mature level, and thats great. hopefully, what i always wished for will come true one day.

oh i wish i could say i hate you, but i just cant, and thats causing the deep pain. clinging on does no good to anyone.

to everyone taking prelims and exams of any sorts, JIAYOUU ! <3

i picked myself up at 7:41 AM
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chinese prelims was horrible. okay to me, it was horrible. to others it might have been okay. but i dont know, i just couldnt do it. ERGH. i really pray that God's hand will be over me. :X for the first paper that signifies in a way, the start of my exams, it certainly did not go well and all i can do now i pray for a miracle. since chinese is subjective and i wouldnt really know how i did, but ahhhh. okay, i really need to learn to let go and leave this to the Lord. yes. :)!
















kbox! lets go kbox and singgggg our worries away :)

so instead of sitting in front of my study table studying, i ended up wasting a whole lot of time doing other things while typing my livingstones journal thing and now im stuck doing the silly chinese sia thing. CANT WAIT TO GET RID OF THESE STUFF. last one last one, and im freee.

taking buses with people are fun, really! they make me happy :D nowadays im always insanely talking to myself and my dad thinks im going crazy. he told me that people who constantly talk to themselves are sent to a particular place ___________ . haha

i actually helped my brother with his project yesterday! im so proud of myself. what can i say? i think our relationship's getting better and its going to a deeper, more mature level, and thats great. hopefully, what i always wished for will come true one day.

oh i wish i could say i hate you, but i just cant, and thats causing the deep pain. clinging on does no good to anyone.

to everyone taking prelims and exams of any sorts, JIAYOUU ! <3

i picked myself up at 7:41 AM
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shps gals !

had fun today! to me at least. :) haha we practically spent the whole day watching stuff! anyway, great going out with you all again. <3 i can imagine the time when we finally grow up and have another this sort of outing, talking about these kind of days, the "old times", when we were in sec schl. anyhow, remember our pact! ;p

click's a nice show ! yep, i liked it. other than the dream part. cos when everything's a dream its like so.. errrr..

training today was okay ! at least i think i didnt really slack, but i really cant move. ahwell! ><

I WILL NOT WATCH ANYMORE I WILL STUDY HARD FOR MY EXAMS !@#$$%%^ ):

i cant wait for the day when ill no longer be bounded by exams, 9 oct, please come quickly :) and 30 oct. :) actually, i really dont know whether i want to reach that date, because i might actually be too depressed to celebrate. but anyway ! haha, time's passing really quickly and i dont want it to pass because it seems im unable to hold on to anything that i really want to hold on to. >< okay, i guess i should just enjoy every moment of my growing up now and enjoy it while i can. i appreciate all of you in my life right now, i really do! :D

if you dont have anything nice to say, why cant you just not say anything? perhaps that would be better than hurting me. even though i might not seem to mind it, i do, i really do.

i picked myself up at 5:29 AM
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haha. holidays are so uneffective.

shows always touch my heart, however unrealistic they may be. but u know, shows ARE really very unrealistic, like how often does it really happen in real life? & its not only the bad stuff that happens that is unrealistic, the good stuff too! like the really sweet guys = nonexistent. :D

so much for treasuring precious time, because uptil now, i dont think ive really made good use of my time, ive barely done anything! and i still feel as helpless as ever. help ! :)

and i never thought it would come to this stage. you know? i dont even know what im talking about. i dont know why things turn out the way they do, and i dont know what to do.

i picked myself up at 5:43 AM
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first day of the week!

i look different now :) doing my hair was fun! u get someone treating u like some princess doing everything for you, haha and the feeling is nice. :) i hope it remains nice!

we went kbox today! it was fun :) even though i dont really sing that much but its still fun sitting in that nice cosy little room with ur friends i suppose. and i have learnt lots of nice new songs, which adeline is busy sending to me now. hehe. but u know kbox is really expensive, they force u to buy the nuts! okay its not that ex lah since its rather longgg and u get to drag it quite long ;p anyhow i like going out.

special outing on wed! :D

im too lazy to upload photos cos the camera's in my room, but i will soon! i have some teacher's day photos too. its in my photobucket.

somehow im glad to have found a friend in you, a person thats different from the past, and i promise i will not speak bad about you anymore, and i hope you wont disappoint me as well.

will i make it?

i picked myself up at 7:51 AM
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one reason why my blog has been updated less and less is beacuse each tiem i update it, the stupid thing becomes like unconnected and my post gets missing and so i cant be bothered to retype the whole thing. lets see if this works.

haha so anyway today was my first proper aquathlon ever! it was quite a fun experience, aquathlons are fun because .. it just is! but my running was slow, but ahwells. it was quite good la :) i also want to take part in triathlons and vertical marathons and stuff! its funn :D the prizes are quite good too! yeps and there's a finisher's medal ! saw lots of swimmers & runners there.. hahaha and c ho's dad and uncle chng! yepyep

going for birthday party bbq later ! how nice. :) shall give myself some slack time here although my revision is like HORRIBLE.

cant wait for 9oct !! lets go out and celebrate after that shall we ? :)

i picked myself up at 1:09 AM
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