Friday, July 07, 2006
hahah everyone in my family at home now is sleeping ! other than me of course.tsk. lazy bums.
by monday, i need to get a completely healed ankle (think it got ! again yest. ><) get completely healthy! and believe in myself. its i can and not i cannot. ergh i really need to get all these negativity outta my head! im really really scared for monday becos i have no idea wats gonna happen. why is this taking me on a roller coaster ride? ): i dont feel up to it but i know i have to do this and this is the only time. why ?? its not like swimming where if i dont do well now, its okay because i have many other small competitions where i can perform and if i do a pb well. its also good cos at least i hit that timing. but for track, this is like the only chance i have. well there are other chances but its rare and this is the most impt. there's also jc but tht wld be different. gahhs. i will give it my all and lean onto the Lord for strength and believe tht He would help me ! easier said than done. but i will try. :x i really wanna do a pb ! why is it just so hard.
its funny how people always think that we're so lousy and everythg and then we think we're the most negative person on earth and we are very weak when everyone is thinking the same way. then everyone thinks that they are in the worst plight when actually everyone's life is just different. ahwell. i suppose im guilty of tht as well.
i really dont understand wats going on and i really think i need some time to sort it all out. youYOU forced me into this
lotsa homework this wkend. heheh need to get lotsa rest and completely recover from this sickening flu.