Saturday, April 22, 2006
why am i becoming like that ?
im sorry im no longer the cheery little girl you know. im sorry for the one million and one mood swings i have nowadays. im sorry for always being so bitchy, selfish&irritating. i dont know whats happening anymore. its like i keep going into this -isuck- mode so easily now or i go into this -everyonehatesme- i dont know i just dont talk and i know i normally talk but sometimes i just wish someone would come and talk to me but yet i dont know what i want you to say. but everyone thinks im scary when i become .. moody?
today during kicking i apparently had this murderous look. i didnt mean it im serious! i was just so annoyed at nothing in particular. so upset with everything in my life. and i just felt like not caring about anything anymore, actually no i was just like **** it **** everything in my life. okay oops. maybe you could call that "depressed"
i think im going crazy&i think im a bit psychotic. aaaaahhhh );
on a lighter note, there's 3k tmr and im feeling very pressured. by myself.
when you said that, i cant answer you, i just felt like crying